CANCER!   HOW DOES IT MAKE ONE FEEL?

Terrible!  The sword of Damocles, hanging over one's head. Never quite knowing when it's going to fall! Never knowing what form it's final death-throws will take.  But before I get too carried away, I am alive today, and I intend to remain so for as long as is possible.  I think that that's the essence of it. Life is for living, and not for dying.  I think that it's very important to have a good attitude and to be positively looking ahead.  

I was diagnosed with stage three Ovarian cancer in August last year and so far I have been through three disastrous lots of chemo, have ingested numerous drops of hemp oil, and spent 18 days in hospital.  The tumor which wrapped its self around my colon needed to be seen to be believed!  I asked the surgeon to show me a picture and he obliged, hauling out this hideous looking mass.  I asked him if I could have it, and so now I keep it in my purse and haul it out at a moment notice to scare away any would be muggers.

I thought I was going to die in hospital, and I think quite a few family and friends thought so too, as I had a steady stream of visitors daily.  It was reported to me that one visitor went home and told a friend, "You had better get in there fast, I think she's on the way out!"  Well! you can't keep and old fuzzy duck down.  I have a young friend who nick named me her "fuzzy duck" on account of my snow white hair, and so that's where that comes from.  More tomorrow....not knowing whether tomorrow will be in a week's time.